I attended a surprise birthday party for a friend (for those keeping track, one of the circle of six) this afternoon. As is typical of such gatherings, I saw a handful of people that I don't see on a regular basis, and all asked the same polite, friendly question that we all ask...
"How are you?"
I answered, as you do, with "Great! So busy...the summer is going by crazy fast!" Not an untrue statement, but not the whole truth. It's a small question, that often gets a small answer in return...when really? The answer is broad, and pretty complicated. What I would have said, in different circumstances that allowed for more truth-telling...
I am torn between languaging only what I desire to be true, and throwing a misery loves company (or at least a come sit by me, let's bitch) party.
I am ready for my house to sell. I am grateful for the positive feedback that I've received from showings, but I am fervently hoping for an offer.
I am happy with the progress that I'm making toward feeling healthy. I'm down 9lbs, and a week into a Couch to 5K run/walk program. I am not happy that my back is protesting.
I am reading pretty much constantly. I go through (thankfully short) phases when I'm taking in way too much information on a daily basis, and feeling overwhelmed. Right now? I can't get enough.
I am feeling my way through an ongoing introvert vs. extrovert situation at work. It's exhausting. I came home on Friday and made a milkshake for dinner b/c I was too exhausted to deal with chewing solid food...and then I went to bed at about 8:30.
I am lonely sometimes. Not as lonely as I was when I was married (that's a whole different level of lonely)...so that's good. Lonely is hard.
I am current on Project Life, and very happy about that!
I am moving forward. Sometimes in baby steps. Sometimes in confident strides.
I am grateful. This year has held more freedom, ease, lightness, and strength (all core desired feelings), and so I do really mean it when I say "I'm great! How are you?"