fall weekending.

It was a rainy, chilly weekend here...so we focused on indoor fun. 

Library Collage

We love the library! We came home with about a dozen books. Standouts - Walter the Farting Dog, and The Three Little Tamales. 

Cupcakes Collage

There is a cupcake shop just across the street from the library, so we've established a tradition/reward for positive behavior. If we use our inside voices at the library, and are mindful of our actions...we get mini-cupcakes! And when it is chilly & rainy, we get hot chocolate & hot apple cider, too.

We did a lot of Halloween decorating, a little donut making, and some (reluctant) room cleaning before wrapping up the Littles portion of the weekend. Time always flies too quickly! 

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Dan & I closed out the weekend with a FABULOUS house concert hosted by one of our neighbors. If you haven't heard of Peter Mulvey before (confession...I hadn't)...I highly recommend that you look him up. Super talented.

Hope your weekend was awesome!


the littles.

Totally borrowing this idea from Ali....

These Littles have been in my life for 2+ years. Many people have asked me what it's like to "start over again." My answer? It's a lot of work, and a lot of fun...

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name: McCartney

age: 5 years & 8ish months

totally into: Horses. Different foods that she wants to discover. 

likes: Ice cream. Being silly. Kindergarten. 

dislikes: Throwing up. Tomatoes. When Wilder is annoying. Caramel.

wants to be: a horse trainer.

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name: Wilder

age: 3 years & 6ish months.

totally into: Going to the playground. Daddy's truck. Candy.

likes: Cars. Chocolate milk. His police officer costume. Our house. 

dislikes: Naps. Being quiet. 

wants to be: a knight.


a marvelous mother's day weekend

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FRIDAY - Yes, we pretty much celebrated an entire weekend around here...and it was marvelous. We kicked it off with a May Day Celebration at McCartney's preschool on Friday. It was spectacularly sunny, and the smiles on the kids' faces made the event even brighter. 

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SATURDAY - I enjoyed coffee on the deck. Our view of the lake is definitely at a distance...but it close enough to be a reminder that the ice is gone! 

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Dan worked for a bit, and I went to a fascinating Yoga & Tarot class - super inspiring, and a great explanation of the Journey of the Fool. When I finished up class, Dan & I stopped in at Firebird Cafe for lunch - one of those little local gems that we've passed a million times but never stopped at. Delicious! We ended the day with a neighborhood (belated) Cinco de Mayo party - so.much.fun.

MdaygiftSUNDAY - Dan & Austin collaborated on an awesome gift - a beautiful teapot set, wrapped in the most amazing Wonder Woman handmade giftwrap. Look at that title detail! And can you even stand the precise signatures from McCartney??

Mdaygifts(ps. We don't draw a distinction between Mother's Day & step-Mother's Day. We talk a lot about different types of Moms in our house...birth Moms, Moms, step/bonus-Moms. ALL Moms are celebrated!)

ScoutdanAfter a pretty decadent Sunday brunch at The Spot (with Austin & Dan), Dan & I did a little shopping...and then indulged in smoked maple lattes at Scout & Company. I managed to get an episode of Grey's Anatomy & a quick nap (I'm a terrible napper), and chatted with my birthday girl. We ended our evening in Burlington at a performance of the Spielpalast Cabaret.

This marked my 24th Mother's Day, and I can honestly say that it was one of the best yet. You've set the bar pretty high, Mr. Holtz....

(yes, I realize that I neglected to get photos with any of the kids - will have to remedy that!!)


2016 project life : february & march

That's right...I'm skipping January for now. It was a big month with my birthday & our Mexico trip, so I want to take a little more time sorting out what to do with it. "Catching up" on February & March was relatively simple. I ensured that photos were downloaded from my camera & my phone, I scrolled through Facebook as a reminder of what we were doing, and then quickly put the pages together. I'll add in a summary of each month in 6x6 inserts. 

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February was highlighted by Mackie's 5th birthday, a day trip to the Eric Carle museum, and our surprise engagement! I may add in the kids' Valentines, and will definitely add in the card that Dan gave me the night we got engaged. 

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Highlights from March included our move, a trip to California, an extended visit from Hope, and the Landmark Advanced Course. Oh, and the Easter Bunny, of course! 

I'm keeping it very fluid this year - I may do some months as a highlights-only spread, while others may be more in-depth. One thing that I'm not doing is including Week Numbers. That will allow me to focus less on exactly when something happened, and more on what happened. 


2016 project life : cover page

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Project Life and I were on a break last year. I'm super happy that we've found our way back to each other. I put this cover page together pretty quickly (except some frustrating printer mishaps) on Sunday...reminding myself to keep it simple

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This quote pretty much sums up life right now. I think it's fair to say that 45 is officially middle aged, right? Living life on the court, managing work & travel, blending littles & bigs, creating an amazing relationship...all of it is messy in the most magical way (side note: funny how my 2015 OLW decided to hang on a little longer, eh?). Our life is full of experiences & moments that I want to remember. So grateful for that.

My plan, so far (and I reserve the right to change my mind)...

  1. Basic 12x12 Design A format - with various sized inserts mixed in.  
  2. Sometimes weekly, sometimes monthly - totally playing that by ear. 
  3. No guilt over being "behind." Our life moves quickly. 
  4. Simple, simple, simple. Using pretty paper to fill a pocket is totally allowed.

Oh, and a little "state of the union" to set the stage for this year's album...Dan & I are ridiculously excited to be moving to a beautiful new-to-us house in a few weeks (more details on that soon). The big "kids" come home now & then (not often enough), and the littles keep us busy (& sleep-deprived) a few days a week. We work hard, we play hard, and most importantly, we love with our whole hearts. 

 


may love prevail.

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I spent most of last week in San Francisco - one of my most favorite cities. I ate delicious food. I drank fabulous coffee (the Gibraltar is my new favorite thing). I walked soooo much (20K steps on Thursday!). I met with clients who are also friends. I spent time with a friend who I've known since high school. It was a good trip

I returned home on Friday evening, and Dan informed me that he needs a break from our relationship. 

It was that sudden, and that unexpected. And yet...thanks to a super high intuition radar...I was not surprised. He was strangely absent from connection during my trip. Something is brewing, I thought.

I cried. I asked all of the questions - why? how could you? when did you stop loving me? I called/texted his Mom (sorry, Iris). I called/texted my besties, my tribe. I cried some more. I talked with my Aunt Betty. I talked with more friends. I drank wine. I watched Grey's Anatomy. And....I cried

When Dan and I first started dating, I told him that I wanted to "live and love in the light." It's a Scandal reference, and it was important to me. I wanted to be public about this relationship. I wanted to share it with so many of the people who have been there for my journey. I made the decision, early on, that I would celebrate this relationship publicly, and deal with the fall-out if I needed to. 

On Saturday, when the reality set in, I realized that I needed to deal with the fall-out. It's a little ridiculous. He shut off my access to his Google Calendar. I changed my FB relationship setting to "it's complicated" & deleted my profile pic. He changed his setting to single. That stung. I followed suit, and added a FB status "announcement." Love in the age of social media takes a lot of maintenance. 

Loving in public means leaving in public. 

I am not going to tell you his story, b/c it is not mine to tell. I am going to tell you my story. 

Seven & a half months ago, I fell for a boy with a fresh tattoo who was wearing a blue gingham shirt. The moment that I laid eyes on him, I thought "oh boy, I'm in trouble."  Love at first sight. I fell, hard. We dated. We met each other's exes. We met each other's kids. We traveled. I met his family. We shared hopes & dreams, calendars & commitments. We each stashed a toothbrush at the other's house. 

And all along, people said "You look sooo happy!" and "You're happier than I've ever seen you." 

They weren't wrong. Dan and I had soooo much fun. We laughed. We celebrated life. We loved. And.....we knew that life isn't easy, and love isn't perfect. Please know this:  Dan is an amazing guy. He has his issues, his baggage (don't we all?)...and he needs space to deal with that. I am still his #biggestfan. So. I had a choice. I could choose to fight that. To rage. Or I could surrender. I could honor the request for space, and do my best to support him on a journey that I know all too well. 

I don't think that my choice will surprise you. And so, this is what I want you to know...

We did not "break up"...b/c we are not broken. Yes, I am heartbroken...but he also broke my heart open in a way that it hadn't been in years. He showed me what it's like to be so very happy. I love every single one of you who has told me "it's his loss!"....and you're right, it is. But it's also mine. We are both #brilliantsexy - a hashtag that we agreed upon early in our relationship that means that we are equally awesome. Dan has asked for what he needs, and I have chosen to say 'yes' with grace & kindness (most of the time). In meditation this morning, I asked for love & light to surround him. I will continue to ask for that

I randomly chose a passage from A Year of Miracles as I sat, and of course, it was perfect...

Creation itself is a thing of love, and where there is love there are always miracles. Anything is possible where there are no impediments to love. No matter what illusions of the world may rage, I believe in the possibility of infinite possibility. Miracles are built into the nature of the universe, and I am open to receive them. May love prevail in myself & others. 

So much gratitude for everyone who has reached out with loving thoughts (and a heaping dose of gratitude to those who went so far as to ask "Okay, so who do I need to kill?"...love you, DV!) Please do me a favor and extend those loving thoughts to Dan, as well. #lovewins

You're the best.

Update - I re-read this in the light of day, and fear that it may seem that I'm completely relaxed and zen about the whole thing. Not true. I dropped some things off at Dan's business yesterday (he wasn't there) and cried on the way home. I said not-very-zen things in text messages like "remember, you're the one who hates me, not vice versa" (note: he doesn't). I miss him. We are trying to stay friends, and I am focusing on that. 


2014 Project Life : weeks 40-42

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I will finish this project. I will finish this project. I will finish this project. I will....

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Week 40. Austin turned 18 (what??). I didn't include any journaling for these weeks, which feels okay right now. 

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Week 41. Funny how calm the color scheme ended up in this one. (This is how we roll is a Kelly Purkey digital stamp that I modified a bit.)

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Week 42. These weeks were filled with stories. Let's be honest...it's unlikely that I'll go back and add journaling, but it's possible.

My goal in the next few days is simply finish this album. It doesn't have to be pretty. It definitely won't be perfect. But...it will be done. And for a year where I fought Project Life? That feels like victory. 


celebrating the Solstice...

It's the official start of winter - the shortest day & the longest night - but from this day forward, we're headed toward the light. We celebrated with an impromptu (homemade) pizza dinner, a bottle of wine, and logs in the fireplace. After dinner, we both wrote down a list of things/emotions/reactions that we're releasing...and then tossed the papers into the fire. Although not exactly ceremonial, it felt good to honor the day with a ritual. We then settled onto the couch to get a little work done...honoring the intentions that we've both made to get shit done.

I'm spending the next two days in NYC, and then coming home for an extra-long holiday weekend. I'll carve out time to finish up #reverb14, December Daily, and Project Life. So ready for a creative clean slate. 

Happy Solstice, friends! 


glad tidings. comfort. joy.

It seems that after 20 years in New England, I've become conditioned to think of December as cold & snowy...so I'm a bit disoriented (happily so) to be in Florida during the holiday season. It has been the perfect way to hit pause on busy-ness and chaos. Great company, delicious food, sunshine, and laughter...that's what comfort & joy look like right now