there's nothing left to do.
we wish you a merry christmas...

melancholy & merriment.

The ominous Dec 21st has passed - and we're still standing. It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel fine. More relevant to me is that winter has officially begun, and we're still waiting for our usual blanket of white. As you all know, I'm not a fan of the winter thing, but this year I'd welcome a few inches to cover up the piles of leaves that are still scattered across the yard. I'm sure I'll regret that in the spring...but we all have to pick our battles, right? 

The Christmas rush is almost over. So much build-up for one day! It's funny how much doesn't change with older kids. There's still the anticipation & the excitement. To be honest, there's also a bit of apathy. I've been quizzing the kids about appetizers for Christmas Eve, and dishes for Christmas Day...and I'm answered with "I don't know" or the infuriating "I don't care." I suppose that I've spoiled them a bit, being a decent (and sometimes creative) cook. They just assume that I'll come up with something. And, of course, I will. If I'm being honest, I'm not feeling the joy in it today. Instead, I'm feeling the weight of having to be the one - the one who plans, the one who executes, the one who is responsible. This was true even before my "single" status, so it's a familiar frustration. 

The year will come to an end before we know it, and really, before we're ready. I'm anxious and excited and impatient. I think that 2013 is going to be pretty epic. 

So, that's where I am today. A mix of melancholy & merriment. Where are you?