sometimes i wish that i had more friends nearby to call for an impromptu movie or coffee date.
sometimes i am grateful that i have older, independent kids who can tend to themselves.
sometimes i miss having little ones underfoot.
sometimes i make the effort to cook a really interesting meal.
sometimes i broil blue cheese toasts drizzled with honey...and call it dinner.
sometimes i am terrified of what the future holds.
sometimes i am exhilarated by possiblities.
sometimes i download books onto my Nook for instant gratification.
sometimes i wander around the bookstore, wanting to feel the weight of pages in my hands.
(and sometimes i really wish that i enjoyed fiction)
sometimes i am disgusted by the weight that i've gained.
sometimes i offer up loving-kindness...perhaps i needed a bit more weight to be able to shoulder the burdens.
sometimes i dread the end of the weekend.
sometimes i count the sleeps until vacation.
sometimes i sit in meditation with ease.
sometimes i jump off the cushion after only a few minutes, with promises to self to do better tomorrow.