I'll check in soon.
see ya. :)
When I'm feeling overwhelmed. And a bit panicked. And a little nervous. I withdraw. Just kinda get back to my shy, comfortable self. In all those personality tests that companies like to do, I am tagged as an introvert with learned extrovert behaviors. In other words, I'm shy, but have learned to play with the other kids.
I am a bit overwhelmed by the amount of work and stuff that I still need to get done by the time that I leave on Sunday. But I'm also overwhelmed with all of the emotions that I'm feeling about both going to Anaheim and going home. And I know that once I'm there, I'll be fine, and I'll have the time of my life...but I'm just a little nervous right now.
Off to the Big Apple tomorrow. I think it will be good. I love the vibe of the city...the hustle & bustle. If it wasn't going to be so freakin' cold tomorrow, I'd take my camera. But I don't think that battery would last long, and I don't really need one more thing to carry.
clearly, I don't. Just crazy busy getting ready to be away from home next week. And Friday. Because, really, when you're going on vacation, it makes it EXTRA exciting to have a business trip the Fri before.
Okay, CHA-goers - if you don't know this already, I'm staying at the Embassy Suites South. Get in Sunday evening, leave late morning on Wed. Leave me a comment if you don't have my cell # and I'll send it to you. Can't wait to see everyone!!
I have all these little bits floating in my head...really should just write them down so that I don't forget something. Although, my theory on traveling domestically is this: I can buy whatever I forget to pack. But, I do want to buy an extra battery for my camera, and maybe pick up a couple of extra memory cards.
Have I mentioned how excited I am that I'm going home??
Several of my blogfriends have been doing these 100 things lists...and since I want to do what the cool kids are doing...
1. I drink, on average, 4 cups of coffee per day. This number is down from an all-time high of 10 cups per day.
2. I had my first child when I was 21 and married. I had my second child when I was 25 and unmarried. I'm not sure my mother approved of either...but she wouldn't trade us for the world now, so I guess she got over it.
3. I wanted to be a lawyer when I was younger. Sometimes, I still want to be.
4. I have naturally curly hair, but unnaturally colored hair.
5. I am a California native, and I miss it every single day.
6. I don't eat most condiments - no mayo, mustard, salad dressing, sour cream, relish. I do eat ketchup & barbecue sauce, but only in appropriate situations.
7. I eat chocolate (almost) daily. Dark chocolate is my favorite.
8. I won't buy the first magazine on the rack...has to be the 3rd or 4th.
9. I sleep in sweat pants, sweatshirts, and socks b/c I'm always cold.
10. I'm only on number 10, and I have no idea if I'll make it to 100.
11. I have a daisy tattoo on my lower back. It's incredibly cute (the tattoo, not my lower back)
12. I prefer white wine over red.
13. I ate flatbread last night with sweet potatoes, ham, apples, shallots, and ricotta on it. It rocked.
14. I still love Beverly Hills 90210, Dawson's Creek, and Felicity.
15. I have a younger brother who lives in Arizona and is very into politics.
16. I have little, if any, interest in politics.
17. I believe in God, but not in religion.
18. I am terrible about keeping up with birthdays & anniversaries. No matter what "system" I try for remembering, I don't. (Happy belated Birthday Matt)
19. I grew up poor, and often forget that I'm not anymore.
20. I've seen Garth Brooks in concert twice. The second time, Rob proposed to me after the concert.
21. I haven't seen my parents in 2 years. Just to check if they're reading...I'm thinking of taking the kids to OK this summer. :)
22. I am terrified of dogs. I got bit by my best friend's dog in 2nd grade.
23. I love cats, but can't have one b/c Rob & Hope are allergic.
24. I have a specific routine for reading the Sunday paper - sale ads first, then the Living section, then the front page, then the Business section. I don't read the rest.
25. When I was in high school, I dated a professional beach volleyball player.
26. I stopped eating red meat for several years simply b/c it didn't taste good anymore. I kinda feel the same way about chicken now.
27. I can memorize the lyrics to a song after hearing it only once.
28. My children think that I have a really good singing voice. I think they might be tone deaf.
29. I used to work with Patrick Dempsey's wife & sister-in-law. Kinda wish I'd kept in touch with them.
30. I think that I have known Shannon longer than I've known any other friend. Renee is a close second, b/c we were in kindergarten together.
31. I met my biological father when I was 16.
32. I have 2 half sisters that I've never met b/c they refuse to acknowledge my existence. Personally, I think they're missing out.
33. I was the California State Champion in Lincoln Douglas Debate in 1988. The following year, I took second...losing to the same girl that I beat in '88.
34. I am still friends with my first...ahem, "serious" boyfriend...and pretty happy that it didn't last.
35. I can only eat scrambled eggs if they are really hot.
36. Green is my favorite color.
37. I have Dwayne's syndrome in my right eye - which basically means that my right eye doesn't move like my left. I don't notice it, but other people do. I had a teacher tell me once that I would never be a television broadcaster b/c my eyes were screwed up. Nice, eh?
38. I still talk to my Grandma Bea, who died years ago. Don't worry, she doesn't talk back.
39. I am extremely sarcastic - sometimes it's humor, sometimes a defense mechanism, and sometimes just sarcasm.
40. When I was hospitalized after my car accident, I hallucinated that miniature girl scouts were in my hospital room, poisoning me through my IV. I can still remember what their laughter sounded like, and it freaks me out.
41. I am often overwhelmed by all that I want to be and do in this life.
42. I just taught myself how to blanket stitch (thanks google search)
43. I'd like to go back to high school, armed with some knowledge that I have now...I think I'd make some different choices.
44. One of my best friends is someone who I met when I was 15 and he was 17. We've watched each other grow up. He probably knows me better than anyone.
45. I've never met an ice cream flavor that I didn't like.
46. The first concert that I ever went to was INXS...the Kick Tour...I went with Shannon.
47. I saw New Kids on the Block in concert at Disneyland on Grad Night.
48. I really wanted to go to my prom with Roman. I went with the guy I later married, instead. If I would have gone with Roman, I wonder...oh, never mind.
49. I am shy. No, really.
50. I have gone by Katrina, Tina, Trina, Katy, Kate, and Kat. I like Katrina the best.
51. One of my greatest fears is getting cancer.
52. When I was little, I wanted to be an Olympic gymnast.
53. I used to volunteer at triathlons while my Dad competed. It was my job to write numbers on people's arms and legs. Serious male triathaletes shave their legs. It's kind of weird.
54. I don't like winter.
55. I love the ocean, but I won't go in it past my knees.
56. I adore Richard Gere & Kevin Costner. My husband says I have a thing for old guys.
57. I started writing this list at 9 am ... it's now 3, and I'm barely half way done.
58. Becky is one of the funniest, most real, and most caring people that I know. I go to her for advice at least three times a week. She should probably charge me.
59. I love the TV show Brothers & Sisters almost as much as I love Grey's Anatomy.
60. Hi Tim.
61. I like avocados, but detest guacamole.
62. I have an older sister in CA. She doesn't like me very much.
63. When I was 6, I burned my hand on the iron. To this day, I don't like to iron.
64. I compare myself to my friends alot, and I don't think that I measure up. I wish that I was as clever as Matt, as sweet as Stacy, as motivated as Renee, and as smart as Shannon. And that's just the short list.
65. A close friend, and bridesmaid in my first wedding, died when we were 30 from complications related to diabetes. I'm still angry with her for not taking better care of herself.
66. I am sometimes embarrassed to say that I'm a scrapbooker...not everyone gets that it's cool, y'know?
67. I crack my knuckles when I'm nervous.
68. I think that I disappointed my parents by not finishing college. I know that I disappointed myself.
69. I'm sorry, but I can't help laughing at the number 69. Dirty, I know.
70. I feel really, really fat. I know that I'm not, but I feel like I am. And I'm nervous about going home to see friends b/c I'm afraid they're going to be thinking "geez, she got really fat!"
71. If things had been different, I would have had at least 2 more kids.
72. I can't watch a movie on DVD unless I'm also reading a magazine.
73. Chocolate chip cookies are the best.
74. I've been to London, Mexico, and Canada. I don't really have any desire to visit foreign countries. I'm not sure why.
75. I really want to go to Hawaii.
76. I am a good cook. Self-taught, b/c my Mom doesn't cook.
77. I've lived in CA, IA, OK, and VT.
78. I still slip into an okie accent when I talk to my Mom for a long time.
79. I have been scrapbooking all day...and I've finished NOTHING. (eta...actually, I did 1 layout and 2 projects..yay me)
80. I wear the same size shoe as my daughter - which multiplies my shoe wardrobe a bit.
81. Hope just told me that her Dad reads my blog, which I find kinda creepy.
82. I love Carl's Jr. Western Bacon Cheeseburgers. Since we don't have Carl's Jr. back east, I stop there every time I'm in Fresno. Picture me, sitting in my rental car, devouring a burger like it's my last meal. Lost your appetite now? LOL.
83. My scraproom gets really cold at night, so when I go to bed, my hands and feet are FREEZING...Rob doesn't even flinch anymore.
84. I'm not a morning person. Hate mornings. Not pleasant in the morning.
85. I think Taye Diggs is quite possibly the sexiest black man on earth.
86. I don't wear jewelry (other than my wedding ring).
87. I highly doubt that anyone is still reading this.
88. I only drink diet soda...hate the taste of regular.
89. is the year that I graduated from high school.
90. I'm IMing with my brother right now, and he says to write "I have a wonderful brother." Whatever you say, Robert.
91. St. Elmo's Fire is one of my all time favorite movies.
92. Chatterbox is my favorite scrapbooking manufacturer.
93. When I was 15 1/2, and Robert was 12, we moved our parent's car in the church parking lot. No one noticed. (yes, Robert, I'm blaming part of this on you)
94. I try to be interested in home decorating and gardening....but I tire of them easily.
95. My views on love & marriage are probably a little unconventional, but that's far too deep of a subject to get into on this blog.
96. I dislocated my hip in a gymnastics meet when I was a freshman. I can still pop it in & out of the socket.
97. My debate team's mascot was Earl the Dead Cat. Our motto was Take No Prisoners. We were just a little competitive. ::wink::
98. I can remember the name of every teacher that I had from kindergarten to 6th grade, most from jr. high, and some from high school. I can't tell you ANY of my college professor's names.
99. My brother swears that I spent an entire summer watching nothing but the INXS Kick video and Top Gun. I think he's probably lying.
100. I don't think that I will ever be 100% satisfied with myself or my life...I always want to reach for something more.
maybe even past my eyeballs.
10 days until I leave for CHA
100 make & takes that still need to be prepped
1 RSVP that needs to be sent for a MM reception
10 layouts/projects that have a deadline of Feb 12
2 techniques that I need to decide on for...
2 layouts that are due in Feb & March
2 degrees - the tempature right now with the windchill
0 outfits picked out for CHA
1 page kit for the store due Feb 1
1 full-time+ job that is kicking my butt this week
1 secret scrappy thing that I'm really excited about
...3 minutes until I need to leave the house
As I write this, it is 9 degrees below zero outside. Plus, there's a wind chill advisory - basically a warning that if you go outside w/o proper attire, you might literally freeze your *ss off. The wind chill creates temperatures that feel like 20-29 below zero. When it gets really, really hot in Fresno in the summer, you get the whole "you could fry an egg on the sidewalk" thing for bragging rights. Yeah, well I can make a frozen margarita on the sidewalk. So there.
I would love to be able to heed the wind chill advisory and just stay inside. I have many scrappy things to get done between now & the middle of Feb. I rec'd another box from Memory Makers this week - another installment of our master's prize packages. Lots of goodies from Fancy Pants Designs, Daisy D's Paper, Stone Creek Creations, and Rag & Bone Bindery. As a result of the influx of new stuff, I've been reorganizing my scraproom - I'll take some pictures of it when I can catch a semi-clean shot.
I haven't shared anything scrap-related in a while, so here's a layout that I did recently...it wasn't quite what the mag wanted, but I still like it. This one is of a friend's son:
Today's quote to ponder from A Fancy Word for Simple:
"If one is a greyhound, why try to look like a Pekingese?" - Dame Edith Sitwell
The rest of the entry (really, you should go read it yourself) talks about appearance, what we do to change ours, what beauty routines & rituals we partake in. This is an interesting topic to me, because I work in an industry that is focused on beauty, and the rituals associated with it. I work with various makeup products each day, yet...I don't wear make up. Part of that, honestly, is a function of my job - 1) I get sick of product b/c I am managing it all day, 2) I have to taste/texture/color test things often, so I kinda need a clean canvas to start with and 3) I actually know what all that crap is made of! (okay, I'm only kidding about #3...seriously). I'll occassionally make nice with a tube of mascara, or offset my ghostly palor with some blush. On days that I take the time, I will admit....I feel better. A little more confident. A little prettier. A little more put together.
The only daily "beauty" routine or ritual that I rarely skip is using hair products. Cyclomethicone & Dimethicone (anti -frizz serum) are a godsend to those of us with naturally curly hair. I am convinced that if I had known about that little chemical combo in high school, I would have had a lot more dates. Frizzy hair just isn't attractive, and since cosmetic science has provided a solution...I'm certainly going to use it.
Today's Fancy Simple entry asked "what do you need to work to accept? what can you change?" I guess I'd say that I've gotten to a place where I'm fairly accepting of my appearance. I'd like to dress better - I really don't have an ounce of personal style. I am working on losing weight (yes, Renee, I'm still working out!) because I feel better when I look better (and I look better about 15lbs lighter). I've accepted the fact that I wear glasses (did I have a choice? I started wearing them when I was a toddler!)...and after a few years of dealing with contacts, I actually think that I prefer how I look in glasses. Besides, that saying about guys not making passes at girls who wear glasses?
So. Not. True.
One of my goals for this year was to join a manufacturer's design team. Since I work on new products in cosmetics everyday, I know the excitement of new lines, new introductions. I wanted the opportunity to be a part of that excitement with a scrapbooking company. You can just imagine the HUGE GRIN on my face when I got an email yesterday from Dana at One Heart, One Mind asking me to join their design team. WOOOO HOOOOO!!! I have to say that I was especially thrilled b/c I had finished up my entry in the midst of that whole computer crash thing...so I had hoped that it wasn't a bad omen. Totally looking forward to getting to know the other members of the team, and working with this fun company.
What else? It's cold here today - typical January cold. I know that we've had more than our share of warmth, so the cold was inevitable, but still....ick. Gotta love the auto car starter, though. Esp with heated seats.
That's all I've got today. Running late as usual. Need to make a mad dash through the house to pick up clutter b/c it's cleaning day.
Scrapbooking is an industry full of amazing, creative, talented folks. It's a group of people who don't just have too much time on their hands (oh, how we love when people say that to us) and a fascination with paper & glue. For some, it's an entirely different way of viewing life & expressing art. Ali is one of those people. You might have read about her One Word challenge (if not, go to her blog, then click on the AEzine archives). I've been pondering this - what one word can be my focus for the year? I wasn't sure that I was going to take on this challenge, but then yesterday, this word occurred to me:
Those who know me well know that I like to have control of my life. I often let other people/things control my decision. Sometimes that's okay. Sometimes, it's not. So, some of "allow" is about letting go of that control. It's about allowing myself some freedoms. It's about allowing other people in. It's about allowing myself to let go of things. It's also about allowing myself to say no. Sort of a granting of permission.
If you're taking on this challenge, I'd love to know what your word is...
I was home yesterday. Staying home with a sick kid is a strange sort of day. I can log in to work remotely, but yesterday, the webmail site kept kicking me out. So working from home became a futile pursuit. So, when it was clear that I'd use personal hours for the day, it started to feel "okay" to do other stuff.
I spent about an hour helping a friend rewrite a proposal letter. Since this friend is in SF, we collaborated by phone & email. It felt good to exercise those skills again - a persuasive letter, set up similar to a case (although I resisted the urge to say "in my first contention"). At one point during the day, I stopped in over at the Fancy Simple blog and read this quote:
And so our mothers and grandmothers have, more often than not anonymously, handed on the creative spark, the seed of a flower they themselves never hoped to see -- or like a sealed letter they could not plainly read. --Alice Walker
I was thinking about quote when I began writing this proposal letter. My mother is a writer. My grandmother was a writer. There is a creativity in writing - even when it's not fiction writing - that has definitely been passed on in our family. My kids will carry on that creative spark, I'm sure. One of Austin's favorite Christmas presents this year was a last minute computer "game" that I picked up at Costco that leads kids through a series of creative prompts to write their own book. He wanted to open & install the software before he opened his remote control car or new DVDs.
A quick note about the forensics tournament that I judged on Sat - my, how things have changed. I'm sure that part of it is a East Coast vs. West Coast. Significantly fewer kids at the tournament (on average, there were 4 kids in each round). One of my first thoughts when I saw kids in jeans & tshirts was "Smith would die if he saw this." Still, it was fun - and a great activity for these kids to be involved in. (Oh, and side note - for anyone who read my Mom's comment about judging - what she DIDN'T say is that she was judging my boyfriend & his best friend in a national qualifying tournament! They lost the round & didn't go to Nationals. It wasn't pretty.)
I enrolled in a Photography class for Feb & March. I think that getting more comfortable with my camera will lead to me being more comfortable taking photos in general. B commented yesterday after seeing the snowy river picture that it seems that I'm more comfortable with nature shots, and wondered why. My response - Nature doesn't judge. It doesn't have expectations. He wrote back "how do you know?" Good point.
Also did a little project for an upcoming class. You can see it here: my MMM blog.